Jack this must be hard to live with because this is how you were trained . The same behaviour that would have saved your life a few days before would scare your loved ones after the war. It takes a long time to recover, if ever. You must have been a good boxer too because self control is a great quality. I'm certain your opponents knew who they were dealing with. I have befriended a German veteran who has told me more or less the same story. He would fall asleep in the trenches. The next moring he would find his best friend with his throat cut, but not him. the Siberian killer had left him alive deliberatley because he knew this would be devastating for the morale and affect far more men than killing one more. This drives me to another quastion . Did the Japanese use such psychological warfare tricks to try to get to your morale?

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