I am sorry to read this Hawkerace, only those who have lost a close friend or parent can understand you. I myself attended a funeral of a dear family member two weeks ago, so I understand what you feel. losing a friend is even harder when it's unexpected and it's always unfair, but what does not get you down makes you stronger. One day you will be able to smile when you think about him and remember the good times you had together.

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