I dont know where else to express my horror

Hey all i was never really interested in war in the past recently i have been reading up a lot on ww2 and mostly on the rape of nanking

the things ive read are so horrific and upsetting its like every night im having nightmares now and its the holidays and im so depressed i cant stop thinking about how sick and evil that war was and reading about the comfort women also its all put me in this depression like there is no good in life and that most people have evil in them or something


its xmas eve and im hiding from family right now crying in my bedroom i wish i didnt feel this way i wish i could just forget about the whole nanking thing but its always on my mind now and im starting to get scared
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i watched a few movies on it and docus along with the book i think it was a bad idea cause i cant seem to handle what i have learned

 

If you are in a state of depression you should see a doctor, psychiatrist, etc. Stop researching this stuff immediately, and talk to the health professionals about it.

Both the World Wars were horrible events, society to this day seems to want to gloss over most of the horrific parts in favor of other things. Sorry to hear your first experience with such things went this way.

Edit: Oh and welcome to the forums.

 

That's why they don't tell you about it in school, and instead they tell you the U.S. was worse for bombing Japan.

 

I'm sorry you are going thru this. I would suggest you seek counseling as soon as possible. It sounds like you might be going thru vicarious traumatization-which is being effected by someone else's trauma. While it is perfectly natural to have horrific reaction to war it seems that is has affected you in a very intimate way. Please seek some help and talk to someone about it and by all means if you get worse, take a trip to the ER. Good luck.

 

I completely agree. I read the book Rape of Nanking and heard the author speak on c-span. Just another ugly side of war.

 

I suggest you get to an ER as quick as possible so that they might be able to provide some sort of help. Nanking was one of the most horrid things ive ever read about but there might be a hint of a possible disorder if your emotions go off the scale like that.

 

Ok, this is what I suggest you should do. What you need to do is stop reading or watching videos about this. This is obviously terrorizing you and you need to remove this from your life right now. It's too tramatic for you. I suggest going for walks, reading more uplifing books, maybe books on heroism in the battlefield, or better yet put WW2 topics on the side burner for a little while. Go out to the movies, socialize. Take this out of your brain.

Remember it was something from the past that you cannot alter of change.. i suggest if your a religious person , turn to spirituality to help you through this. Take control of your life agian. You have put yourself in a depression and it's time to come back to life.

this is a normal depressing time for people. December can be a really hard month for some people, including myself . but keep your head up high and try to enjoy what you have in your life today and put this behind you. Don't be sad or worry, just remember...

"Worrying is like a rocking chair: it gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere."



Hope you feel better soon.. let us know how your doing and if you need to talk to someone, you can PM me anytime


Suzie

 

Hey kid, welcome to the forum. Like others have suggested, try find a doctor. If you are a teenager and has a genetic predilections for depression, you are at the age when it starts to manifest. I have had a girlfriend who cannot tolerate literate about the holocaust, WWII or any atrocity because she is too sensitive and, being already prone to outbreaks, would sink to depression. Take a break, see a shrink, buy a glow box for winters.

Try to have a good Christmas, a'ight?

 

go play in the snow or take a good stiff ride in the nroth wind to get it out of your system. quit watching things like this ............. and yes war is hell there is enough veterans on here that would blow everyone on this board away whether Nam, Korea, Ww 2 and of course the present, we have all felt the pain for those of us that have and are still serving, and I am not trying to fall or stay on the rocking horse, but this is the time of cheer and servanthood, sooner and not much later it gets real old talking and re-living what has been done in horrible ways throughwars that will never cease. Currently and this is disturbing and am being real here, but there are 40 different wars going on over the world.

Merry Christmas

 

thanks i havent touched the book since i am not feeling as emo recently i just really wanted to learn about it and all the details not sure if i will return the book or not i already saw all the movies a month or so ago

any 1 here got experience in this war

 

Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better Cat. Why not tell us a bit about yourself-age, what got you interested in WW2, and maybe some hobbies, stuff like that. Some members might be able to suggest some readings, movies or documentaries that might be a little less biting than what you've talked about here.

 

I am glad you are feeling better cat as well. World war II can be a tragic part of human history to read about it. It took me a long time to really handle the holocaust, deaths, it can be a gut wrenching topic to really take in.

 

glad you are doing better. Maybe you should read only nice stories without violence.

 

thanks im actually an adult english isnt my first language i may of come off as a child lol


the thing is i just have out of the blue gotten a strange obession with the ugly part of ww2 i read and watched about the halocaust but it did not hit me the way nanking did. I just could not believe the nanking story i still am just so curious i wanna find out if its really all true or was it made up like japan says it was. I have no direct relations in war or anything or even the military aside form maybe dating a few pple that are in it. I am pretty clueless when it comes to a lot of stuff I guess my interest is just morbid curioustty. I know a few people who came back from war and often troubled with anxiety issues & depression become over medicated and fragile. I guess another thing that interests me is the mentality someone would have to have during ww2, someone like me would probably break down the first day lol

 

Are you from a country that was in World War 2? Although I guess it might be hard not be, perhaps you should talk to some local World War 2 veterans about their experinces?

 

I can't speak of experiences of the two world wars as i'm not old enough, but when i came out of the royal engineers in 92 i suffered for a long time with the horors i had seen in the falklands & northern ireland & felt probably as you have done, i went through a good deal of counseling which i have to say helped a great deal

i would suggest if this sort of thing rears its ugly head again to do as others have mentioned here & get help

best wish's

 

what did u see? i finished the book while still horrifys me its not getting to me the way it was during the holidays probably just a bit to emo during christmas

 

I did not read the book you refer to but I did get acquainted with the literature surorounding it and its critics. I think the book was done by an amateurer historian so there are rough edges in citations and some clumsy use of evidence; that however should not obscure the fact that it was a well-researched, well-written and basically very accurate account of what happened.

There are controversies in regard to the body count, chronology and the precise details of the atrocity. That shouldn't be surprising. Even witnesses and vitcims of an ordinary violent crime are bound to have gaps and inaccuracies in their recollection, and we are talking about something as chaotic and terrifying as the sack of a city. That should not be used as an excuse, as it was used by revisionists, to masquerade falsehood as "scientific skepticism". The revisionists have an axe to grind and if you look beyond their criticism of the book to what they themselves wrote about the rape of Nankin, it is obvious that they are the Japanese holocaust deniers.

What the Japanese military did in occupied territories are sickening. I do not think medieval, or even armies of the antiquity, went as far as they did. The accounts gathered in Nankin was not different in any way to what western soldiers saw first hand in the Pacific except in sheer scale.

 

i have looked what you said, i feel bad ,maybe there is something wrong with your think

as a human ,i think nearly everyone like peace ,hopes no war.

but as a country ,whether a war happen is based on something we don't know,maybe the oil,the belif and so on.

there is no evil or justice for the war, but the profit and the power, that is the reason of why the war has never stopped ,never!!

so ,if we want to escape the war,we must have a strong economy and the army. at least ,i think so.

as a human ,i like peace too ,but ,i know,something is not devoloping as the dream of us.